I am Me

So I have been thinking a lot lately about who I am and what it means to be me. There are the basics: Holly's mom, Vince's wife, Messianic Believer, Hartford's employee. But what else? What else is there to me? What does it mean to be those things above? Do I do them as well as I should? What could I do better?
Being Holly's mother? It means I had a young adult life full of many responsibilities. Putting someone else's needs above my own. It means skipping on Jimmy Choo's but buying top notch school clothes. Praying myself silly and nights awake wondering if I did everything right, wondering if I did anything right. Realizing that no matter what I did at some point she would make her own decisions. Making hard choices for the greater good; knowing that no matter how other people view it, or how much it hurts, I did the right thing. Feeling proud of her for her improvements and accomplishments even from so far away. Realizing that it is possible to love someone so much you would literally give your life for them.
Being Vince's wife? Discussing things before making decisions. Submitting to my husband's wishes and realizing he is the head of the house. Making my opinions known without being a nag. Sitting through work talk at family events even though I don't like to. Having someone to prop me up when I am down and doing the same for him. Knowing that I will always have a companion who will stand beside me no matter what. Knowing I will do the same for him. Growing in love and growing in our relationship with G-d together. Having someone who will tell me the truth in love no matter what.
Messianic believer: Realizing that Yeshua died was on earth to redeem the human race and bring about a new covenant. Understanding that the new covenant didn't wipe out the old covenant's made with Abraham and Moses. Living my life in a way that will honor G-d and be a blessing to others. Reaching out to everyone who I come in contact with in a positive way so as to show the blessings of G-d in my life. Honoring G-d not only in word but also in deed (realizing that all have fallen short of the glory of G-d) Listening to what the L-rd is telling me and acting in accordance with His wishes. Understanding that if He has called husband into the ministry that I may one day be Rebbetzin and being completely at peace with it.
Sometimes I drink, I love to watch crime shows and hospital dramas. I am an ardent Israel supporter and think if we had our facts straight here in America we would all be. I believe we pay to much in taxes and that there is to much waste in this country. I wish I could be a 1950's style housewife but I appreciate the freedom work brings me. I am all about animal rights and like to eat meat. I know that the L-rd commands us to pray for our leaders and I do but I believe the current President either A)Has no clue who he is dealing with in Iran and Venezuela or B)Is driving us headlong into becoming a member of an Anti-Semitic one world government right along with all the European countries. I enjoy most things domestic such as cooking, sewing, gardening, etc. I love to dress up like a girlie girl. I can't stand being idle if others are working. I am a horrible speller but I often find misspellings in novels...huge pet peeve. I love my temple and want so bad to find my niche there but sometimes I cringe on Shabbat when I have to get up early...that's just how life goes.
Have a wonderful week!