Hello my son,
I just wanted you to know that you are so loved and cherished. I cannot wait until I can see you and touch you. I have to tell you that even though you have been in heaven for about three weeks now today will be the last day your physical body will be within me.
There were so many plans I made for you….Winnie the Pooh, a rocking bassinet, cute Halloween costumes and Christmas outfits. Cruising around town to show off my pride and joy for the entire world to see. Watching you learn to sit and crawl and all the cute things you would say. I imagine you would look so precious in your soccer ball yarmulke and you would always be good during church services. You would be caring and compassionate like your father and love to read like you mommy.
Big sister wanted to teach you to play field hockey and you would learn but secretly love football the best. Even though papa would want you to ride Space Mountain and Star Tours (when you were older of course) you would prefer the Teacups and Dumbo with mommy. You would love to help mommy bake and papa bbq and snuggling with Grandma.
As you aged we hoped to share all the family traditions with you from going to Grandma’s for Thanksgiving to eating chili dogs on Halloween. You would share our love for animals and always help less fortunate people. We hoped to take you to see Nanny and Grandpa Jim in Missouri and share the joys of Kansas City in the winter with you. Papa was hoping for a fourth generation elevator mechanic to share his love of the trade with and to pass the business on too.
While these things will not come to pass I need you to know that you did make an impact on our lives that we will never forget. Some are little things like mommy no longer smoking or living off junk food and caffeine all the time. Some have larger impacts: we are getting more exercise, we have made a budget and are no longer spending as foolishly, papa now realizes he is ready to have another child and is looking forward to it. Most importantly little Atlee you have taught us that we can make it through any storm together.
Though I will have to wait to see you huge head of hair, big brown eyes, or sweet little face I can picture them and this makes me feel better. Please know that even if papa and I one day have other babies they will never take your place in our hearts, you are our first beloved son.
Be a good boy for Grandma and Grandpa and Uncle Joe. Mommy, papa and sister love you and will see you soon.
I love you dearly my son,
Mommy
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