Hello there

So another change in plans. Instead of giving birth at the birth center I am going to be giving birth here. There are a few benefits to birthing here as opposed to the birth center. The main one is husbands peace of mind. It is a relief for him to know that there are all emergency services seconds away should trouble arise.

The midwife is awesome. I was not supposed to go in for another checkup until November 21st but I had a bit of a scare. Most likely nothing to worry about, slightly bloody discharge and some lower back pain. I am not sure why but this caused me to worry. I called the midwife center and they got me an appointment for last Friday. Rita immediately put me at ease, she was very calming and reassuring but also very honest about what could be happening.

We went through the general information, medical and family history blah blah blah, no smoking, drinking, caffeine, prenatal yoga three times a week, 20 minutes of walking a day, prenatal vitamins and omega threes, organic veggies, six small meals blah blah blah.

Then we tried to listen to the baby's heart. She warned us we may not hear anything and we didn't really, there was a slight sound that lasted about 3 seconds but that was all. She did say there was a lot of blood rushing towards my uterus so something is in there. She also felt my uterus and said it is the right size for the stage of pregnancy I am in. She also said due to the difficulties and her experience that something is most likely a boy. Yay!

Next she ordered a blood test and scheduled an ultrasound for next Friday. She told us she is certain that I am fine but the combination of blood test and ultrasound will obviously tell us what we need to know. She was very calming and we both liked her tremendously.

Best part....she called me...on Saturday (!) to tell me the blood tests confirm I have the proper levels of hormones in my system. This means one of two things: Nothing is wrong or the baby is dead but my body is holding on to it. Not the nicest idea but one I have prepared myself for. She doesn't believe that. Neither does husband. I am trying very hard not to believe it and living by faith. I know that our God is huge and only he can truly know what is happening.

I appreciate everyone's prayers and support. I couldn't make it with out you!